3.24am

How I wish feelings could be removed as easy as deleting text messages. I cannot withstand this amount of heartache anymore, I'm dying inside.


I get jealous easily because I'm fucking afraid of losing you ! Get scolded in return. Wtf man. Waiting for freaking 3 hours to wait for you to finish your drama and Skype session with friends just to talk to you. Okay. After all im just an option, maybe not even one.


3 hours past, get scolded. She goes to bed. Cool. I'm such a dumb ass. Was sleepy but I don't wanna sleep and now ? I can't fucking sleep and that's why I'm here. Spitting out every single pain here. Again, you're killing me with suspension.


Friends going to Taiwan tomorrow. Reason I rejected their invitation is because I thought I'm going to spend my time here with you ! But what the fuck. You're not even here...... So disappointed with myself.


Recently many problems and I can't seem to find any solution. Don't know who to tell. Reason? Because no one seems to give a fuck. Life is just like Facebook, when youre having problem , people will either give you simple comments or just "like" your freaking problems because they are busy updating their own ones ! Learning how to keep everything to myself. I'm literally sick of this world. Not getting what I want , yet getting a lot which I don't want to have, For now, at least. For example, cash. Daddy you bank in so much money for me for what ? You expect me to spend 30k a month ? Lol. First time feeling so rich. -.-


And yes, I decided to quit partying. Time to get serious. Work hard for my dreams. #HereWeGo.