:(

I'm really very disappointed already. Really very tired. I don't know when Is real when Is not. Disappointed to the max.


You're the only one I trust the most. But it happened again and again. Stop saying sorry if you're gonna let it happen always. It hurts more.



How I wish you're just a normal friend to me. So that I won't care so much. Not gonna care not gonna ask anymore. It's just a chance for you to hurt me again, although I know you don't intend to do that.


It's so hard for me right now. I shouldn't fall so deep. I love you.

Another day.

A normal study day. Getting harder and harder. Trying hard to cope. Hopefully still can do it.


I will only be nice to those that appreciate me. If not, No. I don't please anyone. Don't say sorry if you're gonna do it again and again


As Days past, there are more and more reasons for me to stop caring about u anymore. I came to a point that I feel like giving up. But, I won't. I don't wanna regret. As I said, love will clear all the obstacles.

Felt that I'm more capable to control my feelings now. Does it mean that I've grown up or ? I don't feel that jealous compared to last time anymore. Always think from others perspective is the thing that I'm improving now. It's not easy until you try. True story.


Ciao

Saturday 😄

A day with nice weather. Came back from cousin's house early in the morning.

Intended to study but ended up sleeping. Nice weather + body feeling sick. Slept the whole afternoon :(


Went for movie with the one I love the most at night. It was okay. Miss her so much.


Late night party time with friends. I was just thinking of her the whole time. Sorry I think i fell for you too deeply. Sometimes I rather choose just to be friends because I'm afraid of losing you. I couldn't imagine what life would be without your existence. :(


Don't wanna think about it anymore. Time to sleep. Wake up and fight for tomorrow!



ciao. 4.25am 8 April.

3/4/2012

Parents coming to kl tomorrow. Sister graduated from medic at UM. Gratz. Proud of her. Officially a doctor. Wootss.


Recently more and more stress. 43 days more to exam. I'm actually quite confident although I haven't finish studying. Don't know why lol.


Quote of the day : When there's a will, there's a way. :)


As usual, I miss her so much. Goodluck in your trialsssss 😄😄😄
Hope u can do well. The smile on your face is priceless.

Goodnight. Ciao

;)

Woke up at 11am. Headache to the max. Still went to class. Ended at 4. Forced myself to study at the library until 6. Came back after dinner and slept from 7-9. Had the worst nightmare so far for 2012.


Sometimes I like you sometimes I hate you but there isn't a day that I don't miss you. :(

Worst day so far for 2012

The amount of heartache u get when the one that used to motivate you the most say something to hurt you. Whatever, I respect you.


Now I understand

Going out for dinner once a month is considered as 'enjoying everyday'

Seriously very stress. But why are you still giving me so much pressure ?
At that moment I really feel like giving up life and just commit suicide. Been suffering so much of emotional trauma recently. The worst part is not knowing who to tell.


The only way is to prove it to you. 从哪里跌倒，从哪里爬起. I just wish that u could stop interfering / demotivate me.